Legit ridic.

First of all, I would like to say that I am so grateful for my life and my blessings and my family and my Christian family. I am so happy. I really have no reason to be fearful or sad or worrisome or anything because I've got this whole thing figured out. It's crazy. Sam Johnson and I were talking about it on a raining June night before the CLIME team arrived, how crazy it is to be so young and have this whole life thing figured out. So many people live 40, 50, 80, their ENTIRE lives searching for answers, for some purpose. I've got those answers. I've got that purpose. I am so grateful for the fellowship of believers in my approximate age range- it's crazy how freeing it is to be with other people who are in the some hypothetical boat as you are. A breath of fresh air.

 I also talked to Ian Bauer tonight. He told me that he was a fan of mine. I know, it seems like a dream but it ACTUALLY happened. THE Ian Bauer- in the flesh. Madness I tell you! Hah.

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After revisiting an old journal I discovered this. It's kind of crazy, the stronghold that Peru has taken on me. And by kind of, I mean really. But alas, that is where my heart lies.

A magic carpet or simply a car would do to get me out of here.

Squishy. Plush. Fun. Predictable.

Comfortable City is the place to be.

Sitting. Staring. Waiting. Praying.

Comfortable City is the place for me.

Complaining. Moaning. Dying to get out.

This comfort often feels like a prison cell.

Like your favorite couch or your favorite jeans. Like that favorite meal with your favorite friends and your favorite time of the year. In that favorite crevice in your favorite futon made my years of calling it your bed. Right now I'd take a mat on the floor in some poor broke down town to get off this futon in the two story house. I'd take an orphan on my lap over this purring, cross-eyed cat. Comfort has it's price.

Comfort comes with the price of numbness and death because if you ain't growin' than you've got to be dyin'. But I'm too young to die today. I'm too blessed here to be sad and wonder what life's like a thousand miles away.

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