I want to write a rhyme about what a witch this wily bout of writer's block has been. Writing worthless pages, wistful thoughts. Writing daily, weekly but nothing worthwhile. Why? Why can't I write? Why will I not write?
Square Watermelons
I need to move to Japan. Do I speak Japanese? No. Do I have any interest in Japanese culture? No. Am I Japanese? NO! That's just the way my eyes look!
This Message Will Self Destruct...
I post things here that I'm trying to hide from the rest of the world:
I just finished my application to serve with Operation Mobilization.
News Flash!!
I'm breaking the news:
I'm making my move towards missions.
I've been trying to deny my call by pursuing more & more education, putting all of my eggs in one basket, so to speak. The truth is that all you need to serve God is a willing heart. I have that. I may not be a nurse or a doctor or a teacher. I may not be fluent in 4 languages or be a worship leader or a preacher but I have a willing heart.
It's slightly sooner than I thought that it would be but here it is. Here I am.
Here I am Lord. Send me. Wherever. Whenever. I will go.
A New Year
It's the second day of the new year and because I am a slacker, I am just now beginning to think about my "resolutions" for the 2011. To be honest, I think that New Year's resolutions are stupid. I don't think that I've ever kept a single New Year's resolution that I've ever made. That's depressing. Well, I guess unless I resolved to stay alive for another year. Than I've managed to keep that one...23 times.
I made a list of things that I'd like to do this year. I wish that they were all foolish, intangible things so that at the dawn of 2012 (the beginning of the end?!) I can look back and feel like I've accomplished something over the last 365 days. I wish that my resolution list looked like this:
This year I want to:
Bake a new dessert
Cry over something stupid
Read no other book than the Bible
Cut my hair
Be moody
Complain about my life
Man, I'd have this New Year's Resolution thing in the bag! I've already achieved most of those things and it's only January 2. Although I'm not aiming incredibly high this year, they're not all easily attainable.
Without further ado, here's my list for 2011:
This year I want to:
Blog more
Eat less
Exercise more
Judge less
Love freely
Get a hobby
Seek direction in my life from the Lord & not men (or myself)
Fall in love (Don't judge me! Though I suppose it is a bit much...)
Do missions
Yes, blog more. I am resolving to do that. Blog more, write more. I really should. Janet asked me to do a little write uppity-do-wop for the Ladies' Retreat and I sat there staring at a blank Text Edit document for 15 minutes. I haven't written anything worth reading in months. That's like the ONE thing that I do well and I haven't done it in months. Usually things just flow out of me and into my journal every night...but not recently. Sigh. All well.
About Me
- Alyssa
- I'm 23 & I feel old already. I write because it's who I am. I appreciate a good song much more than a good book. All my heart wants to do is to travel this beautiful world in the name of Jesus.